Sunday, October 09, 2005
haha im in damn gd mood 2dae!! so i decided to help out at home..doin household chores e whole day! wah..im sweating lyk mad la..nvm..juz feel lyk helpin out..anw, happy tt my mum's getting better..cos she gt shingles since last wk n she's a housewife..so i had to juggle bet studying for promos n doing sum hse work..den end up slping reli late..sum times 2am sum times 3am..b4 actual exam e nex day n every h i'l b disturbed by my grandma
wah..theres juz too many things happening juz b4 my promos la..gt e med report of my grandma..actually her kidney's bad..if im not wrong think she only wan kidney left n nw she's actually supposed to go for a dialysis but den due to her age..theres sum risk la..n theres sth more serious to tt la..think i cant say la..haiya i was damn sad abt it tt i cried for dunno hw long..but shes juz fine nw..anw i cried coz im reli vv close to her too..imagine sharing a rm wif her since 8 til nw..n every time holding her hands wen she wanna go downstairs since a young age..
okok..i noe i cant blame anyone or anything..i noe i juz dun hav e time to study..hectic dance session almost everyday b4 e hol..n thus havin not enuff rest cause mi to b sick for nearly 3 wks..den things juz happen lyk tt..aiya i dun blame anyone la.. itz juz my fault..i noe tt i dunno hw to manage my time properly la... ttz y end up studying til 3..haha i was damn tired aft phy,,u noe wat? i slept fr 3 all e way til 7..den resting..which means lyin on bed fr 830 til 930..den finally slp at 1100pm..i noe ive overworked..i actually din reli hav enuff rest..i wanted to but i cant..im forcing myself to stay awak juz to mug..can u imagine tt ive gt more than haf e topics left juz b4 actual exam on tt subj e nex day? n i juz somehw dunno hw to juggle bet hse work n mugging..n itz pressurizing tt theres fon calls every few min concerning mum.. den my relatives, as usu, will ask abt hse work..whether i help out any onot..ttz hw i end up feelin reli stressed..i cant slp..coz once i slp..i dreamt of mi n my parents in e principal rm..n e P juz asking mi y i did so badly..n i stil rmb "how, so do u wan to drop e subj" oh no..im reli stressed..studying w/o breaks tt time coz i reli cant finish la..haiz ..lucky promos r OVER..sigh! i can finally relax..n yup im not stressed anymore..i reli dun wanna get back my results..i knew tt i din spent much time in it..but deep inside i knew tt ive at least tried my vv best..not to fall aslp while mugging..itz hard for mi to survive e wk..but ive finally survived!!! so ttz y im proud of myself..hehe
okie..wonder hw im gonna split myself into 3..coz theres dance at 1130..med soc exco meeting at 1230..n nyaa aft tt..i'll try to go for each wan la..juz hoping tt dance wun end late as usu coz we'll always repeat n repeat..for perfect ma..prac mak perfect i noe..aiya she's not satisfied unless she see us practising everyday la...haha..but i love dance! finally get to exercise aft so many wks..think im getting fatter..n recently eat loads of sinful food=fatty stuff..oh no..n we gotta perform during e open hse..yes wif tt halter..n heels(haha i almost forgot abt heels)
yay!! exams r over!! nobody to go shopping wif tho..coz my frenz fr otr jc stil havin promos..sum live so far away..n my mum cant go shopping out yet..anw, my mum's getting better..thanx to all those concerned
Great!!! exams r over=no more nightmares! scary!!! always dreamt of bio..dunno y onli bio..den last wan was abt having to pull 4 more teeth for my retainer..for those wearing braces, u noe la..muz pull out 4 teeth b4 wearing braces..so nw pull out 4 more? erm mind u itz permanent teeth lor..ttz y..scary man!! Weird nitemare..dunno hw itz linked tho..i din even think of anyting b4 i slp..cos im dead beat everyday la..ok lucky i had no more nitemare ytd..shall cont watchin tv n doing hse work..haha im relaxing all e way..wah damn shuang..was watching tv e whole day ytd too
im looking fwd to open hse!!hehe..not coz of performing la..coz we did e same dance on teachers' day..juz think itz gona b fun n all..anw..im not gonna b in ushering..ttz gd..coz im helping out in dance n med soc booth..n perform too..haha hope to c my dear juniors..hehe think i miss 'em
blah..i dun wish to get back my results!!! i noe itz not gonna b my v best...
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